Morning Monologue: Day 29 (I Gotta Date Today) 85/90

Good morning,

Waking up early is never fun, especially on your day off. If the stars had aligned in my favor, yesterday would have been the last day of my fast and I would have been able to be slothful today and bask in the glory of a random Jewish holiday. But that’s isn’t the case, as I still have a little over a day and a half left to complete.

Not for nothing, it actually works out better that Day 29 is a day off. Rather than get swept up by the “hecticity” (my own word) of a work day, I can take it easy and reflect on the past few weeks and also clear some of my space mentally and physically. But most importantly, it allows me to squeeze in a long overdue date with a woman I love. Yup, I’m going to go see my mama.

My mother’s birthday was a few weeks ago and due to the “hecticity” of my schedule during the fast, I didn’t get to see her. She still lives out in Queens and since I moved I’m rarely in that borough. I know, I know, it’s no excuse and I’ll be the first to admit that I can be a better son at times, but I truly love my mama. I owe her so much and she’s responsible for making me the man that I am today and the man I strive to be tomorrow.

Despite my neglect and excuse of getting caught up in my own adult life, as soon as I discovered that I had a random weekday off, I decided rather than try and go to a movie or just bum around the house, I would go visit my mother at her office in Brooklyn. We’ve been talking about doing lunch (although ironically I can’t eat) for the longest but our schedules never connected—better yet, I never made them connect and let work and friends keep me away from my most important friend.

I’m sure others can relate: As we leave the home nest and spread our wings into the real world, we get sucked into our own worlds and sometimes don’t look back as often as we should. It’s a practice I sadly have participated in. I just want my mother and my family to know that I love them dearly and anything that they need I will always be there for them even when it seems like I’m not. So, yes, I could visit and see my mother more often, and I’m attempting to change that with today.

I gotta date and I can’t be late…